Time Sure Does Fly
It’s About Time!
Welcome back, Melissa! It’s about time! It was only an 8-month hiatus. I have had SO many things going on in my life. Recently, they’ve all been incredibly positive. Previously? Not so much.
Where to Begin?
I ended up deciding to ride one more breaking season last Fall, and that took up a majority of my time. You’re either so exhausted or sore; you can barely move, or just too busy to sit down and let your brain just rest. Writing when your mind is in a million different places is always a bit chaotic. You’d think you’d bounce around from topic to topic, but alas, you write nothing because there are so many things to say. I do regret riding last year. It took a toll on me; I don’t think I was ready to quit. Despite my longing to continue to break Thoroughbreds, I’m just getting too old to “bounce” anymore and being way too cautious. It doesn’t do anyone any favors. This year, I’m taking my talents elsewhere, jumping steadfast into the world of digital!
This Site, and Many Others
This site has been my work in progress for quite some time now. It has helped me shape who I am and who I want to be in many different ways. Not only learning about all things digital but in getting my thoughts out. I had a rough Winter, and everything was pretty much balled up inside of me without any way to get it out. It typically ended up in explosions of me being an asshole or just bottling everything up. I’m a pretty open book when it comes to feelings and emotions, but if I can admit things to myself, then I pretend they aren’t a thing. Pretty healthy stuff, right?
The past 8-months were some of the most hellacious of my life. Not THE worst because let’s face it when it comes to life kicking your ass, mine gets the steel toe boot every time! My relationship was all, but in the toilet, I had an oral cancer scare, and our beloved Waylon boy passed away. Did I mention all of this was within three weeks of each other? Yeah, when tough times come at me, they COME at me!
I threw myself into work. Working on my relationship, working on websites, and most importantly, working on myself. I went back to therapy, got back on some medications, and dedicated myself to learning more and more about what I had dreamed of being my future. Once again, I lucked out big time.
After working through some of my demons and mourning the loss of our old man, I am happy to say my life is probably the best it’s ever been. I know tough times come for everyone. I am no exception. However, I try to use those particular occasions to show myself what I’m made of. It’s not the messy 23-year-old girl with no direction and lacking any coping skills anymore. I am someone who knows what they want in life.
I expect people to self-reflect when they’ve made mistakes. I want myself not to lose my cool when something doesn’t go my way (This will ALWAYS be a struggle for me). I expect to succeed, even when I fail. I may not know what I’m supposed to do all the time, but that won’t stop me from trying. I don’t have all the answers, but I do have some helpful advice.
I’m doing my best to be the best fiancee, friend, co-worker, etc. that I can be. I don’t always get it right, but I am a work in progress. And I’m okay with that.
Very soon we will hear wedding bells! In just 18 more days, we’ll be flying to Mexico with some of our closest friends and family to get hitched. I didn’t think we’d make it here. But then again, I’ve pretty much said that about our entire relationship and look at us! We’ll say “I do” and a bunch of other mushy stuff in 20 days, then we get to kick back and enjoy a long vacation!
Shortly after that, I will be going to half days at my current job and working on Digital Bombers the rest of the time. We’ve picked up some great clients, and I couldn’t be more proud to work with them. I cannot wait to see what the future holds. If you’re able to weather the storm, you will be blessed with so much more than you could’ve ever imagined. That’s where I am at now. And I am so incredibly lucky.